I woke up today having the most anxiety ridden, and yet funniest dream, I have had in a long time.

I was busy doing a huge pastel painting, and it was time to give myself my first Lupron injection. I got the vial out and tried to get the medicine into the needle, which the nurse made look so simple yesterday. The medicine started dripping down the sides of the needle, and so I tried to fix the needle, but ended up with Lupron all over my hands. My next strategy to resolve the leak was to put the needle into my mouth to try and return it to its previously useful form. Of course the Lupron got in to my mouth (what the hell was I thinking?!?) so I started spitting furiously, knowing that Lupron in the mouth is not a Good Thing. At that point, I asked my mom to help me (she was busy coloring with the pastels), and so she took the needle to try and fix it….but she had pastels all over her hands and got the needle all dirty. I grabbed the needle back from her and started to try and clean it off, when it fell from my hands onto the cat-fur covered carpet! I picked it up, and it was covered in furballs…so I realized that I would need a new needle. That is when I noticed that it was 10:45 (the nurse told me yesterday that I needed to take the shot by 11) and I though, “AHHH, I am running out of time!” So I went to my huge box-o-meds and started sifting through the dozens of needles, couldn’t find the right one…and it was about this time that I woke up and realized that it was time for my shot.

After calming my racing heart from the mother of all disaster dreams, I gave myself the shot, and it was fine. All of the women I have spoken to online said that they didn’t feel it, but I was sure that they were lying because how can a NEEDLE going into your SKIN not hurt?  But…I really didn’t feel it, not a thing. Maybe it’s the fat on my stomach (that I was sure would never serve a happy purpose until today…in fact, I was actually wishing that there was MORE fat to pinch, welcome to bizarro world)…but…nothing, not even a pinch or poke. The medicine went in after a brief struggle with the plunger, and that was that. 6 hours later I have a strange headache that sort of encircles the top of my head and emits a weird inward radiating pressure. Usually I have what feels like a super sized axe chopping in to my right temporal lobe…so this is a nice change of pace!

I’m looking forward to the other surprises that this cycle brings…hopefully one of which is a baby!!